Its kindna long since I last updated my blog, well its an irony since one of my newyear resolution earlier this year is to update my blog as often as possible, well the word "as often" counld be real subjective...
I digress
Life basically is still the same (minus the plane crashes, ship sank and atomic bomb explosion)
Nyway, just for the sake of updating...
1.Do you need him/her to be good looking??
Not necessarily.
2. Smart?
should have some basic level of inteligence?
3. Preferred age?
No preferrences, but not too big a gap either...
4. Preferred height?
could I repeat my answer???
5. How about sense of humor?
Sure, definately
6. How about piercings?
both are fine
7. Accepts you for who you are?
certainly
8. Pink hair?
A big NO!!! but depend on the occasion
9. Mushy or no?
A little bit of both
10. Thin or fat?
Medium cook?
11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
White to erm white??? haha
12. Long hair or short hair?
Both... ( I am Greedy...)
13. Plastic or metal?
what???
14. Smells good?
Smells good as in perfume smell or body odor?
15. Smoker?
NO NO NO NO
16. Drinker?
NO... occasional? perhaps
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
errr... maybe not
18. Musically inclined?
perhaps...
19. Plays piano?
its an attribute but not a big turn on, really...
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
so I that can sing along????
21. Plays violin?
err...
22. Sings well?
sound of music?
23. Vain?
we call it "fei" by the way... I am, how can she not?
24. With glasses?
no prob...
25. With braces?
it will come off eventually...
26. Shy type?
a bit, not too much, could be a bit of hiderence you know...
27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
welcome to the dark side?
28. Active or passive?
I wan both... muahahahaha
29. Tight or bomb?
urhhh? WTH?
30. Singer or dancer?
both...
31. stunner?
what?
32. Hiphop?
can also... but not too manly, can be a bit scary
33. Earrings?
yes.
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
yer... showoff, wanna hear mine??? huh huh huh
35. Dimples?
erm, not a big fan...
36. Bookworm?
No I guess
37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
sure...
38. Playful?
yes.
39. Flirt?
erm...
40. Poem writer?
off cauzzzeee
41. Serious?
scary???
42. Campus crush?
Ooo... that is delicious...
43. Painter?
added vantage...
44. Religious?
depends...
45. Someone who likes to tease people?
so long that its not personal
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
none of the above
47. Multi-lingual?
sure...
48. Loyal or faithful?
...
49. Good kisser?
yay
50. loves children?
Ooo... I wan a soccer team?
anyone who happens to pass by this post(may it accidental or purposive) consider yourself tag... I wanna know bout you guys... kk
Friday, August 7, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Time flies
Two years ago, on this day, I still have you by my side.
Two years later, you no longer is, with me.
Opening a new chapter in life... was I?
Our lives are changed by the very decisions we made throughout our lives. Big or small alike, alter the direction of our life. To say that I hold no regret over the choices that I have made would be impossible, I do regret over certain choices that I had made, not because they are bad decisions, neither did I held in great regards over those "good choices" that finds its source from "reasons". I denies not what my heart desire, with all my might, I try. Giving up on my "objectives" is never an option. Not out of pride nor the willfulness of youth, but by the very believe that, "that" will change my life. I crave for change, change change. No, I held no interest in altering history of the world, but I do have abundance of interest in changing my self and my life, to a certain degree that I do hate the establishment, those slow, old, condescending system.
I am not rebellious but when you see and you feel and you knew that something is not right, will you summit and accept to your fate? When the world is heading to its end, will you follow? I denies my heart no desire, for I desire for change. For better or for worst, I will follow my heart.
I walk a lonely path, but if you can see the path as I do, why not follow me?
For hazardous journey, small wages
bitter cold, long month of complete
darkness, constant danger, safe return
doubtful. Honour and recognition
in case of success
-sir Ernest Shackleton 1914
Two years later, you no longer is, with me.
Opening a new chapter in life... was I?
Our lives are changed by the very decisions we made throughout our lives. Big or small alike, alter the direction of our life. To say that I hold no regret over the choices that I have made would be impossible, I do regret over certain choices that I had made, not because they are bad decisions, neither did I held in great regards over those "good choices" that finds its source from "reasons". I denies not what my heart desire, with all my might, I try. Giving up on my "objectives" is never an option. Not out of pride nor the willfulness of youth, but by the very believe that, "that" will change my life. I crave for change, change change. No, I held no interest in altering history of the world, but I do have abundance of interest in changing my self and my life, to a certain degree that I do hate the establishment, those slow, old, condescending system.
I am not rebellious but when you see and you feel and you knew that something is not right, will you summit and accept to your fate? When the world is heading to its end, will you follow? I denies my heart no desire, for I desire for change. For better or for worst, I will follow my heart.
I walk a lonely path, but if you can see the path as I do, why not follow me?
For hazardous journey, small wages
bitter cold, long month of complete
darkness, constant danger, safe return
doubtful. Honour and recognition
in case of success
-sir Ernest Shackleton 1914
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
New blog, must write something...
*drum rolling
...SOMETHING...
haha...
Now the something,
Well writing really isn't my thing, I meant, I do like to write but just random stuff, and I DO love to write literally with a PEN on a piece of PAPER. The idea of "writing" with your computer really is, yet to catch up with me. Halloooo, I am 19, just 19. Still young I suppose.
Then then what prompted me to do so, something so out of ordinary? (got meh? where got?)
Well I can't deny that those who neglect the Internet are doing so at their own peril, but I SUPPOSE that by utilizing the Internet as a tool to get information is, well in it self, good enough. Not to mention the amount of "information" one can get from the Internet. bla..bla...bla
(see that is what i meant my random stuff, point taken!)
One of the hardest question that I had and have been there for so long, is well, the matter of the heart (emo emo). I can't really get myself right, I don't really know what I feel, I can make decision with logic but logic's are not particularly useful in this case. I can't really make sense something that is senseless? Was it the question of family that causes such conflicts? Well for some reason, I really admire those family who allows their kids to date someone, from a different race, not being racist here but I doubt that its plausible in this family of mine to date someone of lesser family background (education, status etc) let alone those of the same kind.
I can't compare thee to the summer day like Shakespeare do cause for your information, its damn hot in Malaysia, and its not pleasant to relate someone to the rain neither does cloudy days sounds appealing, but then again, what if I do like cloudy days? or rain or thunderstorm? Its subjective, something personal. I can;t express my feeling to someone that I like because its not the right thing to do (so the society dictates) but what can I do? This is not America, we don't have private life here, freedom of expression does not exist here, we all live the way society expected us to live-go to school, college, get a degree, work, get married, have kids, be successful, live happy live, retire, live happier live and die. So sad... What makes us different from rabbits? or monkeys or hyenas?-We human can think-so do monkeys (how to peel a banana)-We socialise-so do hyenas.
Perhaps the only thing that separate the man from the beast we are is the ability to have complex feelings, love? perhaps, I wont be surprise if someday some joker come up with a research that shows that animals do "experience" complex feelings just that they lack the ability to express themselves. Well was it? or merely because we human beings-lord over all creation-cant even understand the minds of those beast we lord over? We build nations and Empires, we conquer vast land and oceans alike, we build great cities and vast farmland, all to satisfied not our need but our greed, but then, was it really greed or was it "development"? No one can stop a seed that falls on good soil to sprout and grew into a big tree, no one can stop a nation that builds itself on good ground and grew itself great.
"Development"-does it merely affect the thinking of man? what about their feelings? I cant understand feelings of beast let alone human being. Its strange to have a feeling for someone and not being able to express it, because 1. society doesn't want us to act abnormal. 2. we have yet developed the ability to "express" feelings of "higher complexity". Who is it that dictates the feelings and though of others? To clean their ass, they create such illusion as, "well, you can think but you cannot do". Well isn't thinking = things half done? Surely you do think before you do anything rite?
I, a law abiding citizen shall sacrifice its own desire for the benefit of society as a whole, but then again, if society is constantly force to reconsider its own desire in order to "fit in", does it really matter to continue on as a society? Law and rules are there to protect not to harm, but if the law and rules do more harm than it protects, aren't it the time to change it? We are reluctant because once again, feeling and thoughts are personal not objectives, they are subject to change without a prior notice. Some have argued, changes must take place slow enough so that they society would not explode, well then, who are you to dictate again? If changes are not allowed, it will be like a bomb being exploded inside a steel canister, sometimes it holds, some times its slightly dented, sometimes its blew itself apart. Changes must take place but not till it harness enough energy to causes a revolution, you fool, a demonstration is by no means an expression of discontent, to fight explosion is not to add more layer of steel to the steel canister but to open its cover so that the canister would not be obliterated completely, or perhaps a better way is to allow changes, to allow the charges being removed and being divert of its energy to do something useful, remove mountains anyone?
Then again I will not fight to change others but will strive to change myself, it changes nothing but to myself, it makes a difference...
...SOMETHING...
haha...
Now the something,
Well writing really isn't my thing, I meant, I do like to write but just random stuff, and I DO love to write literally with a PEN on a piece of PAPER. The idea of "writing" with your computer really is, yet to catch up with me. Halloooo, I am 19, just 19. Still young I suppose.
Then then what prompted me to do so, something so out of ordinary? (got meh? where got?)
Well I can't deny that those who neglect the Internet are doing so at their own peril, but I SUPPOSE that by utilizing the Internet as a tool to get information is, well in it self, good enough. Not to mention the amount of "information" one can get from the Internet. bla..bla...bla
(see that is what i meant my random stuff, point taken!)
One of the hardest question that I had and have been there for so long, is well, the matter of the heart (emo emo). I can't really get myself right, I don't really know what I feel, I can make decision with logic but logic's are not particularly useful in this case. I can't really make sense something that is senseless? Was it the question of family that causes such conflicts? Well for some reason, I really admire those family who allows their kids to date someone, from a different race, not being racist here but I doubt that its plausible in this family of mine to date someone of lesser family background (education, status etc) let alone those of the same kind.
I can't compare thee to the summer day like Shakespeare do cause for your information, its damn hot in Malaysia, and its not pleasant to relate someone to the rain neither does cloudy days sounds appealing, but then again, what if I do like cloudy days? or rain or thunderstorm? Its subjective, something personal. I can;t express my feeling to someone that I like because its not the right thing to do (so the society dictates) but what can I do? This is not America, we don't have private life here, freedom of expression does not exist here, we all live the way society expected us to live-go to school, college, get a degree, work, get married, have kids, be successful, live happy live, retire, live happier live and die. So sad... What makes us different from rabbits? or monkeys or hyenas?-We human can think-so do monkeys (how to peel a banana)-We socialise-so do hyenas.
Perhaps the only thing that separate the man from the beast we are is the ability to have complex feelings, love? perhaps, I wont be surprise if someday some joker come up with a research that shows that animals do "experience" complex feelings just that they lack the ability to express themselves. Well was it? or merely because we human beings-lord over all creation-cant even understand the minds of those beast we lord over? We build nations and Empires, we conquer vast land and oceans alike, we build great cities and vast farmland, all to satisfied not our need but our greed, but then, was it really greed or was it "development"? No one can stop a seed that falls on good soil to sprout and grew into a big tree, no one can stop a nation that builds itself on good ground and grew itself great.
"Development"-does it merely affect the thinking of man? what about their feelings? I cant understand feelings of beast let alone human being. Its strange to have a feeling for someone and not being able to express it, because 1. society doesn't want us to act abnormal. 2. we have yet developed the ability to "express" feelings of "higher complexity". Who is it that dictates the feelings and though of others? To clean their ass, they create such illusion as, "well, you can think but you cannot do". Well isn't thinking = things half done? Surely you do think before you do anything rite?
I, a law abiding citizen shall sacrifice its own desire for the benefit of society as a whole, but then again, if society is constantly force to reconsider its own desire in order to "fit in", does it really matter to continue on as a society? Law and rules are there to protect not to harm, but if the law and rules do more harm than it protects, aren't it the time to change it? We are reluctant because once again, feeling and thoughts are personal not objectives, they are subject to change without a prior notice. Some have argued, changes must take place slow enough so that they society would not explode, well then, who are you to dictate again? If changes are not allowed, it will be like a bomb being exploded inside a steel canister, sometimes it holds, some times its slightly dented, sometimes its blew itself apart. Changes must take place but not till it harness enough energy to causes a revolution, you fool, a demonstration is by no means an expression of discontent, to fight explosion is not to add more layer of steel to the steel canister but to open its cover so that the canister would not be obliterated completely, or perhaps a better way is to allow changes, to allow the charges being removed and being divert of its energy to do something useful, remove mountains anyone?
Then again I will not fight to change others but will strive to change myself, it changes nothing but to myself, it makes a difference...
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
le general
Month passes by without a thing being successfully completed, piles of rubbish left to rot. When will u take action? my plea and cry, arent they annoying? or they sounds like music to your ear? entertaining u all the way?
Never try to make decisions for me, if u are looking for trouble, u can try
Never try to make decisions for me, if u are looking for trouble, u can try
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